everytime i think back to the first day we fell in love.. i would cry.
i really love you so much that it's just so so painful now.
the thought of you possibly having another girlf in a few yr's time..
it just shatters my entire heart.
my heart is beyond savage.
even if i am a cat with nine lives, you have killed me nine times.
no, more than that.
i've died over and over to be able to stand up again.
now.. the time we spent tgt.. it all felt like a dream.
as if.. nothing has happened between us at all.
what lies.
if you ever loved me.. none of this would happen.
you would not let go.
if you accept every of my flaw, you would have love me regardlessly.
and not constantly telling me to change.
if you loved me, you would be willing to wait..
even if it takes forever for me to change.
i am who i am, even if i change, i need time to adapt.
but you gave up before i could make changes to my quiet character.


all this while.. you've lied to me.
all this while, it had been a nice dream.
and now, i woke up to a nightmare.
i love you so much that i hate you.
heartbreaker.

-6:28pm-