hey.
hmm, not sure if anybody is actually listening.
and i don't really care if anyone is actually viewing my blog.
so long i keep updating, it doesn't matter to me.
this blog shall be only for me, and whoever comes across it by fate.
none of my friends know about this blog.
i never did tell them, nor did i leave a link somewhere for them to access.
i'm already dead, so i'll just be a good corpse and rest in pain.


29 days, since we broke up.
everytime i force myself not to go to your blog, i end up going there.
it's gonna be our 7th monthsary soon.. that is if we were still tgt.
i wonder if you ever give a shit about it.
i doubt you'll even rmb it.
probably not, you seem to be happier without me, no?
happier with your Tenko people, with your classmates, with your family.
to be honest, it doesn't help, even if i see your smile.
"if you're happy, i'll be happy too."
that is just bullshit i've made up to pretend that i'm fine.
i am never fine, ever since that day.
well, guess you have walked very far from where you left me.
but do you know i'm still here?
badly injured and wounded, waiting for you to pick me up.
darling, time will not heal everything.
not for this heart, it has hurt too much to recover.
i can no longer get a grip of myself.
not i don't want to, but you've made it such for me.
you let go of my hand and let me fall, and i've died from the fall.
you taught me to give up, so now i'm giving up.
ain't gonna trust anyone else.
ain't gonna kiss another pair of lips.
ain't gonna hold another hand, that is not yours.
ain't fall into another guy's arms.
you're the only one i love.
forever and ever and ever till the world comes to an end.

-5:35pm-